Formerly @beyondwithinideals
I plan to juxtapose who I was with myself at most current. Searching for an internalized sense of growth, 'hoping it's positive.'

I’m so excited for the festival! I just know I am anticipating a lot of vivacity and eclectic aesthetic (rightly so for a kpop theme) and I can’t wait to plan an outfit accordingly..

I’ve got these sunglasses I wanna wear,
hopefully a new purse, crop top maybe? and cute floral leggings from American Apparel.

Best part is I’m going with my best friend who has more if a background for kpop so I have a feelin I will be schooled and possibly shamed but I don’t mind at all being able to bask in this colorful experienceee

My mom is excited for me too! I hope theres like a gift shop around so I can buy her someting!

We spend a lot of money at HMart so they gave me two free tickets to a Kpop event! 😧😧😧😳 @whothefisquan Wanna go?

We spend a lot of money at HMart so they gave me two free tickets to a Kpop event! 😧😧😧😳 @whothefisquan Wanna go?

succulents galore

succulents galore

Getty Museum onlooking the city. Photos/videos were discouraged throughout the establishment 😔

Getty Museum onlooking the city. Photos/videos were discouraged throughout the establishment 😔

dat face (his)

dat face (his)

I say that because I find that it masquerades something so juvenile and not worth glorifying once uncovered; it’s an excuse used to liberate youth, specifically the ones bombarded by hate (who you know have had some participation in garnering it, not to say bullying is deserved but teens of this age and era should know the combustion of social media/the interweb + saying stupid shit but anyway I digress) and to be more on point—it describes people that can’t take criticism. By people who don’t know how to handle justified anger towards them. By people who fail to use their indoor words and instead vocalize themselves via a slew of profanity and incoherent diction because they fail to say “hey, i don’t like that, let me tell you why so this doesn’t happen again”. By people who make mistakes and neglect to take charge of the resulting aftermaths. By people who can’t take care of their shit properly.

It’s the motto assumed by kids who represent the incompetency of functioning in a world where, to be frank, whether or not their feelings exist is irrelevant. The bustling and ever-flourshing hustle here deems your emotions and personal values without acknowledgment, and may it always be composed of fluctuating social behavior and monetary gain. The pragmatics outdo and render what seems to be perceived by the most impressionable of youth as a map to success within a statement. “Idgaf, just doin me” is effective to an extent, but I can’t fathom that there are people who will swear by it as the best representation of themselves.

Making it apparent that you dgaf is cute, and it sure might make for really cute brandy melville shirts and f21 for its non-kids demographic (yeah i better hope so) but lets be real: It’s no mantra for a person to live by in totality.

I criticize it when I see kids posting it all over their Instagram because I think, within its “literalist” context, that it’s interpreted all wrong. I see it popularized by kids my own age, and more so by a much younger group that tends to gravitate to rebellious things like that.

Disregarding differing opinions and taking on an approach of apathy is just.. misconceived for how real, plausible adults behave.

Not caring is faulty.

But let it be known; There can never be a denied respect for those who apply it with grace. Those that separate the meaningless from the significant, that allow a peaceful sanctum for themselves devoid of animosity, that pick and choose whose opinions are worthy of their acceptance, that take care of themselves/loved ones with whatever that entails.

That’s honorable.

cellar door by coryjohnny for tumblr.